My Spiritual Life

Before I was Born Again, I had a sinful life.  I saved nude pictures of actresses, was saving

pictures/pages from  the Playboy web site, and collecting dirty jokes. I was angry with a lot of

things, grumpy toward my family, and dealing with an enormous amount of depression. I was

feeling sorry for myself, not always telling the truth and the depression led me into the

hospital for chest pains, and even one time loosing the ability to speak. This was all related to

my depression and the guilt of my sinful life as well as the stress I was dealing with.  In

October of 2001 my depression and guilt was so strong that I went to find a pastor to talk to.

Most of the churches were closed when I went looking, but I came across a gentleman that

was working at a church and he explained to me about the Pastor of that church and how

when he talked, he called it as it is, told the truth and followed the Gospel in the Bible.  He

invited me to come the next Sunday. The way I felt at that time I figured I  have nothing to

lose.

When I went to church, I was welcomed and felt comfortable there, so I continued to

attend.  One of the Board Members of that church came to visit me at home and I was

explaining my past to him. When I was explaining about my suicide attempt, when I took an

entire bottle of my prescription drugs, (I was having problems with the girl I was dating at the

time. I met her at a strip club. She was a dancer. To this day I still don't know what the exact

reason was that I overdosed) and walked away from my apartment down the street to my old

elementary school and I found a place to sit down to where I couldn't be seen by anyone.

Then I got the urge to get up and start walking to my old middle school. When I got to the

street, my parents saw me, they tuned around, and when they stopped and opened the door, I

collapsed into the car and I was taken to the hospital. The rest was explained in the About Me

section of this web page.  When I was explaining this to the Board Member, I realized that the

urge that I had was basically a kick in the pants from GOD to get me moving because He

Knew that if I do get moving, that when I got to the street my parents WOULD Be There. It

really got me thinking.

On October 21, 2001 I was born again in the House of God by praying the Sinners Prayer

to GOD with all of my heart and soul. One thing I didn't know before that day is that in

John 3:3, Jesus declared,

"I tell you the truth, no one can see the Kingdom of God unless he is Born Again".

I thought that being baptized was enough but found out through God's Word that it wasn't

enough and when I died I DID want to go to Heaven !

When I went home that day, I started cleaning up my computer getting rid of ALL of the

nude pictures I had saved and also deleting the entire Playboy folder I had (took about

15min. because I had nearly 1 GB saved).  About 2 weeks later, I was able to get better

movement in my shoulder/arm that was injured in the December 1999 car wreck. The

shoulder/arm that the therapists gave up on. As time went on, I learned from one of the

pastors sermons, that it is sinful to have/read dirty jokes just recently I finished cleaning up

All of the dirty jokes I had. If I could change the wording so that it wasn't sinful or offensive

and still funny I did , if I couldn't I deleted the joke. In the future, I may decide to add my

cleaned up jokes to my web pages.

My Life has done nothing but improve since the time I accepted God and His Son Jesus

Christ in my life. I was able to get a volunteer job being a playground supervisor at an

elementary school. They (the students) call me "Mr. Jeff".  It's one of the best things that has

happened to my life. God, of course, being the Very Best Thing. My depression keeps

diminishing day by day. My anti-depression med's have also been reduced (one was stopped

and the other was reduced for now hopefully in the near future I can be off of it all together)

and the medication I was taking, that I overdosed with, My doctor allowed me to stop taking.

YEAH !!!

Everything I've told you is the truth. And even though my life is improving, there will still

be trials and tribulations I go through that satan might try to tempt me, But Now that I

Believe in God and Jesus Christ I have Them on my side. I will continue to believe in Them

regardless of how bad the situations get. Because with Them I will be able to get through

it.

NOBODY will ever be perfect or sinless, But if you pray the Sinners Prayer and accept

Jesus Christ as your Personal Savior, Study the Bible and understand that ALL that is written

in the Bible is the Absolute Truth and that the Word is from God and Jesus Christ. Pray

everyday about everything, giving thanks to Our Lord for all the Great Things He Does and

Has Done for us, And Join a Bible Believing Church and attend regularly. You WILL find the

perfect and sinless world when you die and go to Heaven.

At first I thought that would be really hard to do all of that, but from understanding that

That God is Patient, Loving, Caring, Kind, Gentle any Many Other Things, It makes it a lot

easier to do.

May God Bless All Who Read

This And Start To Renew

Your Mind In God.

-- Jeff Clemons